oh my gosh! it's been 2 full years since I last wrote on xanga... so much so much has happened, there are many many good times, good friends... Life is truly full of pleasant surprises (thanks to a special someone who reminds me of this). I have learnt so much and feel so blessed. Please never give up and always live up to your dreams! All of us has different talents and characters, we will all shine through in our own unique, individual and special ways! =)

Present location: London

Occupation: Master of Laws student

I came across a link at Ling's website which touches my heart and would like to share it with you: http://playlist.yahoo.com/makeplaylist.dll?sid=12112836&ru=y&b=1drkhmd11j4so4219f5be

when true love comes, nothing can stop it, no one can prevent it, no one can... even space and distance, you and me.

Time really flew by, especially last year since I started my final year in law school. looking at my xanga makes me wonder... what have i done in the past year!? seems so much yet so little... mid 2003 till now has been one of my happiest times in life so far, I have truly enjoyed the time and experience. Glad to have become closer with some really great buddies. I always find it strange to put my thoughts so boldly in public, the fact that I am more of the quiet type who does not easily share thoughts and emotions to strangers...

                                 "Being Twenty-Something"

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you
have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most
important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too,
and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused
as you.

You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are
going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find
yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have
certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list
of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then
the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

Was walking around a VCD store yesterday, saw Leslie's movies and just can't resist the thought of leaving them there. I bought a couple of them home, I guess I still misses him. He's my first love, I was 4 so not sure if that's love but I can remember most of his songs already. As far as I remember, he glows in the TV screen, very attractive and alluring. Leslie memories~ Imagine a world without memories, the past, present, future doesn't seem to matter anymore... the present becomes the ultimate. Will we live as we do now? Maybe there won't be anything to regret but nothing to hope for either. Still I believe life itself is a gift.

Past few days were all wonderful and beautiful birthday celebrations with friends. Thanks for remembering and sharing my birthday with me. My cousin Katrina sent me a few of her songs as my birthday gift, I have to ask for her permission to put them up here, her voice is really sweet! Thanks for all the presents!

25/4/03

Wake up to a few LongD birthday phone calls and ecards. Not sick, no hang-over from last night, so lucky! A quick meet up with my 2 pretty girlfriends. Got home just in time for a warm Family Dinner. Then the best birthday dessert with an amazing night view, i felt like I was floating in the night of HK.

Lovely dinner with my CSP friends, yes we kept close with each other 2 years after the exchange program.^^